Recently I’ve been reflecting on the quote “Leave the past behind you.” I don’t know if I believe in it or if it is something that is even possible for some of us. Trauma knows no way of being left behind I have learnt. It stays as much as you want it to leave. It stays in our subconscious, our mannerisms and most importantly the way we perceive things.
I used to be someone that I no longer am because of the past. It changes us. And then there are some of us who just wallow in our past, internalizing everything because there is no way of letting it out or talking about it. I guess that’s because no one asks us. When I say “ask” I don’t mean the interrogative questions or the ones where we are simply asked because people like to know our business but rather the compassionate questions. These are the questions that best come from family, loved ones and friends – the people who care about us.
This brings to that wretched quote .. ever tried opening up about your experience to simply have someone blatantly say ” let’s not talk about it. Leave the past behind?” I for one wish that person would disappear that very moment. Just when you are looking for a way to channel those feelings and hope that someone would listen and understand you are asked to shut up. It’s the worst feeling ever because suddenly it feels like your story is not worth being heard and that nobody gives a shit.
I think people often forget that talking about something we’ve been through is healing. It allows all that pain that is resting inside us, come out. It gives an opportunity to be heard, valued, validated and advocated for. It’s important. It’s necessary. Sometimes it’s everything.
Every survivor wants to feel cared for after they come out of something traumatic. Yes, they are starting a new chapter in their life but one can’t just start fresh without being validated for what they’ve been through. Pain needs closure as does every end to something broken and not just from a counsellor or a lawyer but from the people you call your own, including the new people you welcome into your life. We want them to know where we’ve been, who we are because of that and indirectly yet most importantly how much love and support we need and desire. We want to be told, ” You’ve been through so much.” We want to be asked ” How are you, really? How can I help? What do you need? Are you okay?” And more often than not we want to hear the words ” Tell me your story.” Because that in itself is so liberating, so encouraging and speaks a thousand words of care and acknowledgement.
So if you know someone who has been through hell and back don’t love them with silence. Ask them a few questions of compassion. Show them you care, that you want to know because you want to be there for them and give them the love and support they need. Be part of the healing & the liberating.